in which i feel very sorry for myself and then get over it (and also, apparently I ramble)

Do you ever have one of those days where you realize you spend way too much time comparing yourself to other people and feeling like you're not measuring up?  Or wishing you had something you don't, or trying to be somebody that you're not?  I had one of those days today.  And it was stupid, because omg, I have SO much to be thankful for.  I don't mean to brag or anything, but I really do. 

Charlie.  My baby.  He's so snuggly, and sweet and cute and OMG snuggly.  God knew I needed him after losing Mina, and boy, was He right.  Charlie Pete was just EXACTLY what I needed.
Camden.  He's really sweet.  Granted he can't sit still for three minutes straight but he has such a kind heart, he really does.
Grace.  She is my mini-me (but don't tell her that, she'll get mad).  She is so smart, and so mature, and so...I don't know, she makes good choices.  I'm really proud of that about her.
Chris.  We got married when we were babies.  For real.  And here we are, about a hundred years later, and he's still my best friend.
My extended family.  Almost all of them live nearby, and I'm thankful for that.  Even though most of them are crazy as hell, I love them.
My girl cousins.  I know they are actually included in my extended family, but they deserve their own shout out.  I LOVE them.
My in-laws.  I am so blessed to have in-laws I get along with...that I like.  I realize that's not all that common.
My awesome friends.  Oh wow, I can NOT count on two hands how many true friends I have that I consider my "besties".  (I'm not sure that sentence even makes sense?..are you still with me?)  I am so blessed with amazing friends that are like sisters to me.
Oh that reminds me!  My sister!  I love her.  She's cool and stuff.
My town.  I love that I can't go anywhere without seeing somebody I know.  I'll never leave.
My home.  We have a great home that fits us, that I feel safe in, that my kids can grow up in.  Sometimes that green envy monster creeps up and I think, "but so and so's house is bigger, or is in a better neighborhood or...whatever".  Today I tell that monster to get the f out of my house.   : )

Here's the thing about me.  I don't sugar coat things.  My friends know this.  If we're shopping (I DO like shopping) and you're trying to buy something ugly, I'll tell you that it's ugly.  If you're just a little too tan, I'll let you know.  I'll probably parent your kid with you standing.  right.  there.  Because if you're my friend, I would expect the same from you. 

Ok, this post is feeling a little too deep for me, so how about a photo of the cutest.  baby.  ever...